and her friends don't understand her.
she's a question without answers.
who feels like she's falling apart.

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tank of gas
and empty heart.
but i've got everything i'll ever need.
i got this old guitar and
a brand new set of strings.

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Look me in my eyes
And tell me
That I can never have you
That all my hopes of us
Are only dreams
Just tell me now
Before I love you any more

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now you're forcing the liquor down your throat.
it's unpleasant; but hey, we need to forget.
you tried so hard to get inside of her head.
the secret is out, you were weak all along.

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i'll be sleepless so cry yourself to sleep,
this is about broken hearts,
this is about me.
bending again for nothing,
i'd run to you but pain awaits.

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I think it’s quite Pathetic
how you’re so stuck up
I thought that as we got older
people would grow up.
this isn’t kindergarten sweetie
stop playing childish games
no more pranks, no more rumors,
no more calling names….
now since I’M Mature
I’ll forgive & forget.
but watch out next time you pull that shit
yeah bitch that’s a threat

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Real beauty is loving yourself
And that’s something
she could never do

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Twinkle, Twinkle
Drop of blood
How I long to be
up above
Watching over
all my friends
Once my life
comes to an end
Sparkle, Sparkle
Razor blade
Grant my wish,
take me away

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do you know what it's like to be me?
go through something that not
everyone can see? do you know
what it's like to walk in my shoes?
please stop judging me simply
because i'm not you.

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I'm a daughter hiding my depression.
I'm a big sister making a good impression.
I'm your friend acting like I'm fine.
I'm a teenager pushing her tears aside.
I'm the girl sitting next to you.
I'm the one asking you to care.
I'm your best friend hoping you'll be there.

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When we were little we had dreams
of being big rockstars & doctors.
Now life has changed &
those dreams have faded ;;
now we're just hoping we make it

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A shot to kill the pain,
A pill to drain the shame,
A purge to stop the gain,
A cut to break the vein,
A smoke to ease the crave,
A drink to win the game;
an addictions an addiction
because it always hurts the same

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You see THAT girl, yeah her.
She seems so invinceable right.
but just touch her & she'll wince.
She has secrets & she trusts no one.
she's the perfect example of betrayal.
cause everyone she trusted, broke her.

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One small cut,
No one will notice.
Everyone is way to busy for me anyways.
So just let me, just once more
and more I let the blade go.
All at once the blood starts to pour.
I watch it all go awful,
thats what cutting is.
Cutting is so addictive, you will never understand
until you start to cut yourself.

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Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and i said
your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.
I don't wanna ever love another.

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Cutting is the most amazing addiction you'll ever have.
Screw smoking, screw drugs.
They are nothing compared to the beauty of self-injury.
Your heart beat quickly, you slowly savor the pain
and then there's the sight of your beautiful,
beautiful blood.
It's worth the pants in summer,
the countless bandages
and the lies you have to tell.

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she says she's fine
but she's going insane
she says she feels good
but she's in a lot of pain
she says it's nothing
but it's really a lot
she says she's okay
but really she's not

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She cries at night,
She imagines another world.
She dreams about another face.
And she wishes that it would change.
But as she lets the tears fall on to the ground.
She knows that dreams do not come true.

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Maybe it is cliche to say that my heart is broken.
And my heart isn't just broken...
It has been torn apart into little pieces and stomped on.
Now as I try to tape the heart back together again,
My soul quickly begins to break and the heart falls apart again.

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I hide in the lies I tell.
I say I am okay with it,
I even believe it myself.
But deep down in my heart,
I know I can’t lie anymore.

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Sometimes you fall in love with someone...
Who just doesn't feel the same way.
And somehow...someway...
You are supposed to live with that...

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I'm Not Going To Get Drunk To Please A Crowd
I'm Not Going To Be A Slut And Sleep Around;
I'm Going To Say What I Think And Say It Loud
I'm Going To Say What I Belive And Stand Proud.
I'm Going To Be Me Not Matter Who I'm Around..

edit here 7:23 AM

A friend will tell you not to drink,
but a best friend would buy the bottle,
hand it to you and scream
"LETS GET DRUNK BITCH!"

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sometimes i feel like no one cares.
sometimes i feel like no ones there
sometimes i feel like i'm alone
sometimes i'm in an empty zone
sometimes i feel like im not alive
sometimes i wonder if im deprived
sometimes i think the world should end
sometimes i think i have no friends
sometimes i want to make them see
sometimes i wish i wasn't me.

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getting a paper cut on one finger hurts
but its not that bad.
you can use your other nine fingers.
getting a cut on your wrist hurts;
but its not that bad.
at least you can see how deep the cut is.
getting a cut on your knee hurts;
but its not that bad.
there'll only be that little tiny scar.
getting a cut on your lip hurts;
but its not that bad.
you know that it'll heal one day.
getting a cut on your heart;
now that’s bad.
you’ve only got one heart --
and you cant see how deep the cut is,
you can only feel all the pain it causes.
and there will be a scar in it forever.
and worse of all, you wont know
whether it’ll ever heal at all

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She's shaking in the car with the gun in her hands,
Falling over love and a sweet romance,
And I ain't never thought it could come down to this,
A bullet in my head, with the sweetest kiss...
it's in my head.

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Another poem, another line,
another girl pretending she's fine.
Another hour, another day,
she wishes she could get away.
Another heartbreak, another tear,
another excuse she doesn't wanna hear.
Another paper, another pen,
she writes she wants to be strong again.
Another story, another lie,
another night that she will cry.
Another band, another song,
another days passed, slowly gone.
Another scream, another doubt,
''Kick me while I'm down'' she'd shout.
Another forced smile, another broken heart,
just another girl wishing life would restart...

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friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly
cause i dont want to reveal that face that i'm suffering
so i wear my disguise 'til i go home at night
and turn down all the lights and then break down and cry
well i guess i'm trying to be nonchalant about it
and i'm going the extremes to prove i'm fine without you
but in reality i'm slowly loosing my mind
underneath the guise of a smile
gradually i'm dying inside

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the worst thing in life is to lose a friend.
a friend that means the world to you,
a friend that you put all of your trust and faith in,
a friend that you believe in from the start,
a friend that you care,
a friend that you share all your things with,
a friend that took the center of your heart,
a friend that you'd die for,
a friend that you wanted to cherish for a lifetime,
a friend that you love so much,
a friend, a good friend, a best friend

edit here 9:31 AM

Wake me when it's over,
I don't feel much like crying tonight.
Please tell me that you're leaving.
I don't feel much like holding you tight.

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Faded away like the color in a blue sky at the end of the day.
Night falls and the search begins for something better than this.
A scream or a cry, the truth or a lie,
I'm not sure they will save us this time.
I don't wanna be around
when it all comes down
to watch something beautiful die.

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I don't know if I can make it.
I don't know if I'm that strong.
I don't know where we went wrong but somehow it's over.
In my mind I see you clearly.
In my dreams I feel you near me.
I want to know, does this feeling go away?

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She smokes like there's no tomorrow
She says it makes her feel alive.
She drinks her wine like water
'cause she feels dry inside.
She drives her car like it's a bullet
She says that time is slipping away.
She never thinks about her future...
It's a million miles away.

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I see it around me,
I see it in everything.
I could be so much
More than this.
I said my goodbye's
This is my sundown.
I'm gonna be so much
More than this.
With one hand high,
You'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time,
But no one cares,
No one cares
I need you to show me
The way from crazy.
I wanna be so much
More than this.

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I need you in the worst way.
I don't think I'm gonna pull through.
All eyes on us, do you think we can make it?
I'm not so sure that I'm good enough.
Please assure me that I'm good enough.

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You try to find one source of light,
try to name one thing you like.
You used to have such a longer list,
and light, you never had to look for it.
But now it's so easy, it's so easy to
second guess everything you do
until all you want is to finish this half empty glass
before the ice all melts away.
This feeling always used to pass.
Seems like it's every day,
seems like it's every night now.

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i am emo and i love naruto

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